More songs by Alexander Stewart
Description
Mixing Engineer: Matthew Huber
Mastering Engineer: Joe LaPorta
Composer, Writer: Alexander Stewart
Composer, Writer: Whakaio Taahi
Composer, Writer: Rollo
Producer: Whakaio
Lyrics and translation
Original
When I was thirteen, I started gaining weight, so I started counting calories sometimes.
When I was sixteen, someone told me I was stupid, so I bit my tongue, let others speak their minds.
Now I hear voices late at night, and honestly, I'm terrified that I'm never gonna be the same.
Some people are scared of heights and monsters coming out at night, but I'm afraid of something I can't change.
I'm scared of myself.
If you ask me the truth, I'm not doing well.
I'm afraid for my life, I'm at war with my mind, and nobody can help. My thoughts go. . .
Oh, I lost control.
I'm scared of myself.
If you ask me the truth, I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well.
When I was nineteen, someone stole my innocence, and the first thing that I did was blame myself.
Now in my twenties, and I still feel like a kid trying to work through all this shit, but God, it's heavy.
Now I hear voices late at night, and honestly, I'm terrified that I'm never gonna be the same.
Some people are scared of heights and monsters coming out at night, but I'm afraid of something I can't change.
I'm scared of myself. If you ask me the truth, I'm not doing well.
I'm afraid for my life, I'm at war with my mind, and nobody can help.
My thoughts go. . .
Oh, I lost control.
I'm scared of myself.
If you ask me the truth, I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well.
English translation
When I was thirteen, I started gaining weight, so I started counting calories sometimes.
When I was sixteen, someone told me I was stupid, so I bit my tongue, let others speak their minds.
Now I hear voices late at night, and honestly, I'm terrified that I'm never gonna be the same.
Some people are scared of heights and monsters coming out at night, but I'm afraid of something I can't change.
I'm scared of myself.
If you ask me the truth, I'm not doing well.
I'm afraid for my life, I'm at war with my mind, and nobody can help. My thoughts go. . .
Oh, I lost control.
I'm scared of myself.
If you ask me the truth, I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well.
When I was nineteen, someone stole my innocence, and the first thing that I did was blame myself.
Now in my twenties, and I still feel like a kid trying to work through all this shit, but God, it's heavy.
Now I hear voices late at night, and honestly, I'm terrified that I'm never gonna be the same.
Some people are scared of heights and monsters coming out at night, but I'm afraid of something I can't change.
I'm scared of myself. If you ask me the truth, I'm not doing well.
I'm afraid for my life, I'm at war with my mind, and nobody can help.
My thoughts go. . .
Oh, I lost control.
I'm scared of myself.
If you ask me the truth, I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well.