More songs by Mert Nadir
Description
It feels like that state when even the air seems thick, like smoke after an argument. It seems like everything is over, but inside, it's still smouldering - familiar, almost cosy. Somewhere at the bottom of my consciousness, the thought pulsates: "Well, what if I've been through worse before?" And it's true - you fall from a height, pick up the pieces, wipe the blood from your knees, look in the mirror, and see the same person, just a little calmer. The music sounds like a heart beating through a cotton blanket - slowly but steadily. It lacks pretension, only quiet humility and a slight taste of doomed humour: the film will end the same way regardless, but who said you can't watch it with beautiful sadness? Words/Music: Mert Nadir Arrangement: Mert Nadir Electric Guitar: yeetbey Recording: Forte Recording Mixing and Mastering: Archie Studio: SGM Sahne Camera: memo.raw Assistant Camera Operator: Emre Topal Editing/Color: memo.raw Cover Art: Derya Farahani Production: Fi Plus
Lyrics and translation
Original
Kaybettim kararsızlığımla ben kendimi.
Neyin ortasında bulur elleri?
Kan revan içinde her yeri.
Bulaşmak zor gelir.
Ne fark eder içimdeki bu yangın hiç dinmedi kim bilir.
İzliyordun sen beni.
Döküldü bardağım ve ben düşüyorum en tepeden.
Bitmez ama alıştım zamanla.
Sor bana şu halimi.
Dolanır duman hep katilim.
Biliyorum aslında sonu hep aynı o filmin.
Gör bak şu halimi.
Dolanır duman hep katilim.
Biliyorum aslında sonu hep aynı o filmin.
Ne fark eder içimdeki bu yangın hiç dinmedi kim bilir. İzliyordun sen beni.
Döküldü bardağım ve ben düşüyorum en tepeden.
Bitmez ama alıştım zamanla.
Sor bana şu halimi.
Dolanır duman hep katilim.
Biliyorum aslında sonu hep aynı o filmin.
Gör bak şu halimi. Dolanır duman hep katilim.
Biliyorum aslında sonu hep aynı o filmin.
English translation
I lost myself with my indecision.
In the middle of what do they find their hands?
There is blood everywhere.
It's hard to get involved.
Who knows, what difference does it make? This fire inside me has never subsided.
You were watching me.
My glass spilled and I'm falling from the top.
It never ends, but I got used to it over time.
Ask me about my situation.
There's always smoke, I'm a participant.
I know that the ending of that movie is always the same.
See my situation.
There's always smoke, I'm a participant.
I know that the ending of that movie is always the same.
Who knows, what difference does it make? This fire inside me has never subsided. You were watching me.
My glass spilled and I'm falling from the top.
It never ends, but I got used to it over time.
Ask me about my situation.
There's always smoke, I'm a participant.
I know that the ending of that movie is always the same.
See my situation. There's always smoke, I'm a participant.
I know that the ending of that movie is always the same.