Derdim

It’s like a stuck internal dialogue after a breakup - like a record with a crack: everything is the same, but for some reason you listen to the end. Words turn into rhythm, fatigue becomes almost a melody, and melancholy becomes a familiar background sound. There is something strangely warm about this closed loop between “gone” and “will you come back,” like trying to talk to a shadow that is still answering.

And among the endless repetitions, a quiet “I love” suddenly breaks through. Not loudly, not confidently - just as a fact that cannot be canceled. Love remains, even if everything else has long faded.

Words: Murda

Music and producer: Spanker

Mixing and mastering: Chopts

Record label: Pasay Music

Production: Journey Film

Director: Utku Kemal

Producer: Sedat Demirtopuz

Director of photography: Arinc Arisoy

Line Producer: Tuba Kiymaz

Hadise Artist Representative: Gökçe Aktug

Murda Artist Representative: Rody Cetinkaya

Assistant Director: Zeynep Sütçu

Production Manager: Ali Burkay Kitaplioglu

Production team: Ahmet Onur Kömeç, Betul Mutlu, Utkucan Türkmen, Furkan Yildiz

Editor: Mert Khalili

Color: Emre Karagöz

Online: Necati Demircan

Reggie: Sumeira Yildirim

1st AC: Mesut Geduk

2nd AC: Eren Gilgil

3rd AK: Erkan Turan

DIT: Dogukan Deliduman

Steadicam: Yusuf Belli

Steadicam Assistant: Aziz Karadeniz

Behind the Scenes: Duck Chebi

Art director: Muhittinkan

Artistic assistant: Vladislav Zuev, Deniz Kezik

Master: Sezgin Kerish

Best Boy: Salih Bölme

Lighting assistants: Kadir Ucar, Cihan Hayta, Muhammad Karashal, Rafet Çukuryurt, Berkan Dulgar.

Handle: HG Set Grip

Stage director: Ghazi Akbal

Film crew: Yilmaz Kaya, Yunus Yavuz, Ibrahim Bilek

Photo: Nilay Eren

Behind the Scenes Video: Umut Deniz

Leader of the movement: Chisil Syki

Cast: Mert Yalcin, Serhat Verim.

Dance group: Hafize Sheker, Deniz Belova, Daria Belova, Asli Gürel, Cagla Ozkan, Ali Erim Koç, Ali Buga, Esra Yuner, Monalisa Oygut, Irina Savchenko, Steven Pvayok Pam, Vladlena Kazhan, Merve Yilmaz, Anastasia Pozdeeva, Anastasia Kiriakova, Francisco Javier Nguema, Anna Makhmudova