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Description
It's as if a dry lump of words is stuck in my throat and won't come out. The words ‘thank you’ sound like a cough, and instead of saying goodbye, there is only a soft, quiet ‘stay.’ Everything around is about tenderness hidden behind a fragile smile, about the habit of being strong when you want to scream, and about how love can fade, remaining bright blue like a forget-me-not that you still squeeze in your fist.
This is not tragedy, but a subtle sadness, almost tender. The farewell sounds not like a loud slam of the door, but like a breath between kisses. Slightly ironic, slightly childish: ‘Hug me, tell me that you don't need anything but me... oh, no, I'm joking, everything's fine.’ This is the music of those moments when you let go, but don't unclench your fingers right away.
Lyrics and translation
Original
「 さようなら」が喉の奥に詰まってしまって。
咳を するみたいにありがとうって言ったの。
次の言葉はどこかとポケットを探しても。
見つかる のはあなたを好きな私だけ。
平気よ、 大丈夫だよ。 優しくなれたと思って。
願いに変わ って最後は嘘になって。 青いまま枯れていく。
あ なたを好きなままで消えていく。
私みたいと手 に取って。
奥にあった想いと一緒に握りつぶしたの。 大丈夫、大丈夫。
今すぐに抱きしめて。
私が いれば何もいらないと。
それだけ言ってキス をして。
なんてね、 嘘だよ。 ごめんね。
こんな時思い出すことじゃないとは思うんだけど。
一人 にしないよって。 あれ実は嬉しかったよ。
あなたが 勇気を出して初めて電話をくれた。
あの夜の 私と何が違うんだろう。
どれだけ離れていても。 どんなに会えなくても。
気持ちが変わらないからここにいるのに。
青いまま枯れ ていく。 あなたを好きなままで消えていく。
私をずっと覚えていて。
なんてね、 嘘だよ。
元気でいて。
泣かない私に少しほっとした顔のあなた。
相変わ らずのんきね。 そこも大好きよ。
気がつけば横にいて。
別に君のままでいいのに なんて。 勝手に涙拭いたくせに。
見える全部、聞こえる全て、色付けたくせに。
青いまま 枯れていく。 あなたを好きなままで消えていく。
私みたいと手に取って。
奥にあった想いと一緒に握りつぶしたの。
大丈 夫、 大丈夫。 今すぐに抱きしめて。
私 がいれば何もいらないと。
そう言ってもう離さ ないで。
なんてね、 嘘だよ。 さようなら。
English translation
“Goodbye” got stuck in my throat.
I said thank you as if I was coughing.
I searched my pocket for the next words.
The only person you'll find is me who loves you.
It's okay, it's okay. I thought I had become kinder.
It turned into a wish, but in the end it turned into a lie. It dries up while remaining blue.
I will disappear while still loving you.
If you're like me, pick it up.
I squeezed it together with the feelings that were deep inside me. It's okay, it's okay.
Hug me right now.
As long as I'm here, you don't need anything.
Just say that and kiss me.
Oh my god, that's a lie. Sorry.
I don't think it's something I remember at a time like this.
I won't leave you alone. That actually made me happy.
You plucked up the courage to call me for the first time.
What's different about me from that night?
No matter how far away you are. No matter how much we can't meet.
I'm here because my feelings haven't changed.
It dries up while remaining green. I will disappear while still loving you.
Remember me forever.
Oh my god, that's a lie.
Stay well.
You looked a little relieved to see me not crying.
As always, carefree. I love that too.
If you notice, stay next to me.
I wish it were just you. Even though I was wiping away my tears.
Everything I see and hear is colored.
It dries up while remaining blue. I will disappear while still loving you.
Pick it up if you're like me.
I squeezed it together with the feelings that were deep inside me.
It's okay, it's okay. Hug me right now.
As long as I'm here, you don't need anything.
Just say that and don't let me go anymore.
Oh my god, that's a lie. Goodbye.