Description
The words sound like the inner monologue of a person who is tired but still moving forward - as if their legs are carrying them up a steep hill, even though their heart is begging them to stop. The phrases break into short pieces, like breaths after a long run: there is anger at one's own fatigue, a stubborn ‘pull yourself together,’ and fragments of memories left in the past.
The music embraces this text with a soft but heavy beat, creating the feeling of a grey morning when everything around you is pulling you down, but a voice in your head still says, ‘Don't give up.’ The result is an honest, hoarse sketch of life at a turning point - with pain, self-irony and a tiny spark of hope that refuses to die out.
Lyrics and music: Mengelez
Lyrics: Kaan Berk Başaran
Cover art: Roxxo
Producer: Xolkie
Mixing and mastering: Cad
Lyrics and translation
Original
Arıyordum ama bilmeden de koşayım yolu. Ne kadar özlesem de sabır selamet bu konu.
Bu kadar yeter kapris çekmek yok size müsaade.
Sonunu gören neden döndü zor görünce hali? Zor görünce kaç, incelince pas.
Yorgun ince düştü aklım dedim gelir şans. Bakarken uzağa konular uzar. Her gün aynı hali biterken yıllar.
Bu kadar da dert kederle yeter oldum pert.
Battım çıktım dedim oğlum başaracaksın mert.
Sonunu bildim ezberli memlekette geçek geçek derken her gün daha dibe battık. Maziye kaldık.
Milletim az mayık bakın gelecek kime kaldı. Yeter hep diyorum pes ediyorum.
Bu hayaller zamanla tükenecektir ama heder olma unutma, unutma.
Birden kalktım öldüm sandım. Aslında pek yok mu sabrım? Dedim hayat verir yara.
Uyu anam, uyu anam. Birden kalktım öldüm sandım.
Aslında pek yok mu sabrım? Hayat dedim verir yara.
Uyu anam, uyu anam.
Ben çürüyorum her gün. Anlayacak gibi değilsin demiştim. Uyu.
Bitiyoruz her gün daha da bittik gitti öldük ya da.
English translation
I was looking for it, but let me run without knowing it. No matter how much I miss it, patience is a matter of salvation.
That's enough, no whims allowed.
Why did those who saw the end turn around when they saw the situation hard? When you see it hard, run away, when it gets thinner, pass.
I was tired and lost my mind, I said, luck will come. While looking, the objects become longer in the distance. As the years end in the same situation every day.
I've had enough with all this trouble and grief.
I said, "I'm in trouble, I'm in trouble, son, you will succeed, man."
I knew the end, we sank deeper every day as we struggled to get by in this memorized country. We are left in the past.
My nation is in tatters, look to whom the future is left. I keep saying enough is enough and I give up.
These dreams will run out over time, but don't be wasted, don't forget.
I woke up suddenly and thought I was dead. Actually, don't I have much patience? I said wounds give life.
Sleep mom, sleep mom. I woke up suddenly and thought I was dead.
Actually, don't I have much patience? I said life gives wounds.
Sleep mom, sleep mom.
I rot every day. I said you don't seem to understand. Sleep.
We are finished, we are more finished every day, we are dead or dead.